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AGONY

Blegh

fol!

It’s not even like they’re wrong. Maybe none of this matters. Maybe I just poured the wrong fuel into the wrong engine and now i’m leaking that feeling like oil from an old car!

Everything’s so small when you zoom out yet i’m still standing here holding dead weight like it means something.

I keep trying to give a fuck about it like i’m supposed to. like that’s the task. but it all feels fake. a sick joke. “caring” like it’ll save me from the black static hum in my gut!!

Burning out on the wrong the wrong fuel

Am I even here? a sheet of white printer paper left out in the rain, people don’t make sense.... I don’t either. I'm not pure, not good, Just sick of pretending like I don’t notice how much of the world is held together by wishful thinking & flavours of accelerationism disguised as "coping mechanisms".

S43 they keep calling me along with other motifs... like it means something, no internal heat. Really just copy-pasted affection & half-remembered warmth on the paper I keep in my pocket.

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I kinda like this shit
makes me wanna do some bs
like play counterstrike in an abandoned smeltary:

A theory... the same loop every time, wait... wait... wait... weekend, blackout, dark room then... nothing! Change empowered, indebted then finally deposed.

The mirror doesn’t lie.. Does it?
Decaying in freefall every sunday’s a funeral for a version that never lived long enough, discontinued like the man under the bed. This one’s just the patch update, a standard edition that crashed.
Party has their armor & loot while I’m still naked in the spawn zone.

Need a lair but not a home, instead just a room to exist in without that kind of static. The creature absorbs me and I think “oh, this is warm” but just then, apparition insertion, same thing.. I’m floating again unrendered and tethered just stuck.. no boot? just a sprawling bios.